April Target Hit!

I was a bit worried about this target, I was away for the weekend a week ago and I think I lost my tiny mind a little bit!


We go away with friends every now and again and I go with every good intention in the world of behaving myself and just drinking wine in the evenings and going out during the day and working some nice exercise calories up and sticking within my targets. Then everyone buys chocolates and cakes and crisps and leaves them open in front of me!


I swear, I'm like a crack addict set down in front of a mountain of top grade charlie!  I even brought back 2 hot cross buns that they don't sell where I live so that I could savour them!!


I am a sick puppy.


Malteasers are alright though right? Right??


Anyhoo.


Got home and back onto the wagon big style.  Got into Jillian Michaels 30 day shred again - finished level 2 and did day 1 of level 3. Ouch. Back to that tomorrow *shudder*.


Have had a nice swim (learning butterfly stroke at the minute! I know!), did some exercise biking and am in the process of (with dearly beloved) doing up an old bicycle in order to start learning to ride!! I am incredibly excited by this prospect :D  I know there's going to be a bit of falling down and some scraped knees and stuff, but I don't care, I *want* to be able to ride a bike. I *will* learn to ride a bike!!


So! Weighin!  I set a target of 12 stone 7 pounds for monday and when I stepped on the scales I was pleasantly surprised by:

12 Stone 5.25 Pounds

Which was very nice indeed.

So I'm hereby setting a new target for 30th April of 12 Stone 2 Pounds.  That will get me to the threshold of a new decade of lbs (170) just in time for my 31st birthday (yikes)!

Oh, also, my leisure centre membership has changed. Which means I'm going to be able to go to the fitness suite as well as the pool. This opens up the possibility of my starting jogging.....  Interesting developments abounds!


Till next time!!


xx

Breaking the Plateau

Hello!

It has been a while since I've had anything to say, but I can quite happily say that I think I have broken through the plateau!!

Thank goodness!!

My last post here was on the 30th January, and my graph was distinctly flatlining. It wasn't a terrible thing, I can honestly say that I am quite happy with my body the shape that it is now (apart from the bewbs, but that's a post for another day).  

I do want to be able to get to a healthy BMI though, so I decided to mix things up a little bit to see if I could bust through.

So! Using myfitnesspal.com settings I reset all my goals to change the way that I eat!!!

I've boosted the amount of protein I eat in a day and lowered my carbohydrates (note, I am still eating Carbs. Just not quite as many as before).  I'm still eating around 1750 calories (net) per day - a 250 calorie deficit - just in a different way!

So, I've been doing that for about a month now - some days more successful than others! (Protein is kinda hard to eat without being totally across every mouthful of food you eat all day - I really don't want to think about my food that much. Also I don't want to have to resort to bars and protein powder shakes). And it seems to be going ok!!

Before I give you the weighins though I also want to say that I've shaken my exercise routine up a little as well.

I had a week in the middle of February where I was so ill. I mean really, a flu the likes of which I hope I will not see again for a very long time.  Myself and dearly beloved were totally floored and in bed for 3 whole days (and not in a good way). When we finally emerged at the other end of it I can honestly say that my body felt as weak as a kitten. It's amazing how quickly you can lose your stamina if you don't stay on top of everything.  Having said that, I have been pleased at my recovery time, I think I am back on form now! I need to continue with my swimming endurance, but that is a post for another day too!


Anyhoo, to get myself back on track, I have finally given in and am having a go at Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.  So many people have told me (on forums) how great this DVD is and after hearing a friend of mine tell me how good and convenient it is for a working person, plus how you really feel it even though you're only doing a 27 minute workout a day.  Well, let me tell you.  You really *really* feel it!  

There are 3 levels that you do for 10 days at a time. I'm on day 8 today of level 1. 

I upped the weight that I use for my bicep curls last night.  Ouch.

Anyhoo, I'm doing that on days that I'm at work (as long as dearly beloved doesn't mind doing the cooking - he's a wonderful man really, no matter what anyone says about him ;) )  and continuing with my swimming on days that I am off. 

TO THE WEIGHINS!!

• 30th January - 12 Stone 12.5 Pounds -   180.25lbs

• 6th February - 12 Stone 11.75 Pounds - 179.75lbs

• 13th February - 12 Stone 6.5 Pounds -   174.5lbs

• 20th February - 12 Stone 9 Pounds  -   177lbs

• 27th February - 12 Stone 8.75 Pounds - 176.75lbs

• 5th March - 12 Stone 7.75 Pounds -      175.5lbs

Aren't they lovely numbers? :)


So glad to be down around the 175/next half stone level! That 9 stone barrier is well and truly trampled! 

So for my next mini target, I'm hoping to get below and stay below 12 stone 7 by the start of April!


Looking forward to seeing the results of this 30 Day Shred DVD!

Dreading The Plateau

Ok, I'll admit, I haven't been following the plan exactly. Things are changing diet and exercise plan wise and my face isn't quite keeping up with it like it should be, thus I'm getting a little bit discouraged by the result on Scaley Mc Scalerson!

Todays weighin - Target post christmas was:

12 Stone 12.25 pounds

180.25lbs

Which, when looked at logically, is pretty good for what I was aiming for - I wanted to maintain 180lbs - but, I have been "behaving" myself for the entire month of January to no result. I think we can officially call this a plateau now.

Anyway, I'm not going to let it get me down, as I've been rejigging the program and I am now in a "lose half a pound a week" category, so it's going to take a lot of time.

The new plan is to eat a heck of a lot more food! Which is nice :)

I've redone my calculations and I have 1750 (approx) calories to eat in a day, as well as any calories that I claw back from dragging my ass around a swimming pool in a day.

I also have to calm down with my weighins I think. It's just not going to move as quickly as it used to. I may have to go to fortnightly or monthly weighins to make sure that I don't get depressed.

Last night I was so annoyed with myself that I just ate everything in the house!! I mean really, I ate (not unhealthily) a lot of food! about 1000 calories more than I should have!

Anyway. I'll think about what target I am going to set this month and put it on twitter by the end of the week.

New challenges required I think! Something physical as opposed to a scale target. 

Damage Control

Mid way through 1200 fortnight January.


I've stumbled a few times, not quite kept the weekly total under what it should be, but to be honest with you, it's such a wrench from my normal eating that as long as I'm keeping it well below 1400 per day, I'm ok with it :)


I've started to play a little bit with vegetarian food.  Meat seems to be the one thing that adds an insane amount of calories to my meals. Don't get me wrong, I'm not turning vegetarian, I'm merely commenting on my lack of control when faced with an entire leg of lamb (mmmm leg of lamb) so I'm thinking it would be nice to be able to have a few meals a week/month where it's only veggies in the dinner.  Good for fibre intake and a massive calorie dip per meal! 


So I've bought Hugh Fearnley-Whittingstall's "Veg Everyday" cookbook and last night I made the Cauliflower and Chickpea curry from it for myself and dearly beloved.  Very very nice indeed!! Lot of experimenting required :)


Calorie deficit/surplus for the week were:
Monday : -586 - oops
Tuesday : 14
Wednesday : 62
Thursday : 111 
Friday : 148
Saturday : 16
Sunday : -149


Calories Burned for the week in exercise : 1265


Good to be back into it again :)


This week has started off well, I've got some new toys that I'm going to have a play with today and will tell you all about next time (can you say heart rate monitor?! wooooooo!)


Hopefully next week's weighin will show me back to pre christmas weight (am still a bit over that 12 stone 11.75 pounds, but not far!)


Hope 2012 is going well so far ;) 

Christmas is coming LRD is only a little bit fat

Hello!

It's been a while since I've felt the need to express myself on this as I've been messing about a little bit more on http://www.Myfitnesspal.com a bit more recently.  Nothing terribly exciting, just acting like I know what I'm talking about and generally being a bit of a pain in the arse.  

However, I weighed in today and felt the need to talk a bit about it.

I've been hovering about the 13 stone mark for a wee while now - I was beginning to wonder if it was going to be a finish mark for me. I'm pretty happy with my body at the moment. It does everything that I'm asking it to do on a regular basis and the fact that I have to tighten the seat belt on an airplane seat now just tickles me to death :D

This morning I stepped onto the scale after a pretty good couple of weeks drinking and eating and partying for the festive season. Fairly confident in the knowledge that I really didn't deserve a loss.  Hoping that it hadn't gone up too much.

12 Stone 11.75 Pounds

Can you believe that? 

I have left my weighin for a couple of weeks since the snowboarding escapades as my muscles had swollen and put on about half a stone of water weight (period week too) so I decided to leave it.

I've still been counting calories, but I've not been jumping on the scale morning and night for a while now. It's quite weird to feel yourself changing habits.

Anyway, another thing I've done now is I've upped my calories and decreased my defecit again.

Isn't that a beautiful thing? "Marginally overweight"  I would have given my right arm for this point back at the beginning! 

Anyway, that number means that eating a 1lb a week calorie deficit number nowadays would be far too little to keep up a healthy metabolism. (If what I've read on the fitness forums are to be believed) Plus, I want to start learning to eat like a normal human being now and a few more calories to play with are a good thing.

So, I have a limit of 1750 per day, I exercise as often as I can throughout the week and do my best to eat back all the calories that I earn from that.

We'll see how much damage I do over Christmas, but it's nice to flirt with the 170's for the end of the year :  179.75lbs!

If I don't post again I wish everyone a very very Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Seasons Greetings etc, but most of all a peaceful, prosperous and healthy 2012!

"Don't you lose too much!"

I had to share this, cause I didn't think that anyone would ever say it to me, but I've had 2 in a week now.


Todays weighin went as follows:

12 Stone 13.25 Pounds

How good is that?!?!

Anyhoo, I'm currently at 181.25lbs in weight, 13.25 lbs in the overweight range of BMI and about 31lbs from my final goal.


This week 2 people have said to me "Have you much more to lose? Your face looks so thin now, you don't want to go too far!"


Hilarious!!


I realise that a lot of people can take these things to extremes, but I have got a final goal in sight. I'm not going to let other people giving me compliments (as lovely as that is and please don't stop!) to sidetrack me from getting to a healthy weight.


HOWEVER


I am very close to the time when I think I will have to rethink what I'm doing.


I've been on a calorie deficit for a 1lb loss per week for a good few months now, and I have to say, it's been going pretty well. I am however now thinking about lowering my defecit again.  


I read an article on myfitnesspal this week that hit home with me on how my body really works. 


I need to work on my muscles. That means I really should be doing more strength training (nothing too extreme, body weight resistance stuff and a few hand weight exercises) and upping my fuel intake.


The gist of the article was that as your bmi gets closer to a healthy range, you run the risk of using your lean muscle as fuel instead of the fat that's left in your body when you exercise (or indeed as you just exist!).  In order to overcome that, you actually need to eat more! Now, not a bucketful of KFC kind of more, still the same nice healthy things that you've been enjoying with a large defecit so far.


So, I'm not quite ready to make the step yet, but I think, after Christmas I will re-evaluate my diet and my goals and see where I am.


Hopefully in a position where I haven't gone bonkers barmy over Christmas and gained too much!


Food for thought.

Still swimming, weighin week 14/11/2011

Hello everyone!


Feeling a little bit pleased with myself at the moment. 


I decided to go and do my workout yesterday morning before I did my weighin, so I'm fairly certain that it was a bit of a fluke/cheat.  


I got up at a fairly reasonable time (no dragging this ass out of bed at 7am!) and went for a nice long swim.


Seriously. A *LONG* swim! I decided that I was going to do a whole hour! And I did! I started at 09:35 and I finished at 10:40!  I was so pleased with myself.  I can pretty much do the breast stroke now.  Still nowhere near it with the front crawl, but I can do a couple of full lengths of the (admittedly only 25m) pool now!  My stamina and endurance will only get better from here on in, but I tell you, I am so bloody proud of myself you would not believe!  The grin I had on my face when I first did an entire length of the pool, it actually hurt my face I was smiling so much! :D


So, weighin.  I did my lovely hour in the pool (stopping briefly to sign up to join the leisure center to try and save a bit of money for my multi visits) and got home and stepped on the scale.

13 Stone 1.75lbs

WOOO!!!


That's a loss of 2.25lbs in a week! I have *not* behaved well enough to deserve that. Especially after the big meal I ate on Saturday night (lot of beer, lot of food, lot of fun)


So, I'm pretty sure a lot of that was an empty tummy (I didn't eat before swimming in case of cramp) and dehydration - I get really thirsty after a swim!!   BUT, if I behave myself a fair bit this week I should be able to maintain it and stay on track for my target of the 5th December.


Very pleased :)

Monday, monday.

Hello all!  This post will be rubbish, feel free to ignore it.


It's Monday again and that means that it's weighin day!


Had a mad day yesterday. I think I went a little bit barmy and decided to eat everything that I could possibly find in the house after eating a massive dinner.


I think I managed to stay under my calorie goal, but red wine and chocolate was a nice wee addition to my day.


Anyway, stepped on the scales today and found:


13 Stone 4 pounds


woo! That's a 2.5lb loss this week.  Very nice indeed :D Feeling very happy with that.


week in review has shown:

Monday - 195
Tuesday - 294
Wednesday - 114
Thursday - 20
Friday - 248
Saturday - 521
Sunday - 41


Which has given me an additional deficit of : 1433


added to my 3500 profile setting 


doesn't add up to 2.5 pounds, but I think my time of the month added to that this week.


Anyway.


I've set myself my goal of 6.5lbs for the next month - hopefully I'll be able to meet that, but I know that there's a few parties and drinkies to go to in the meantime.  Which might screw me over a wee bit. I just have to remember at this stage of my weightloss that I'm in it for the long haul.  It's no longer a race to get to the finish line. I always know that if I mess up a little bit I can readjust and sort it out.


Having said that, I really, really want to get to goal!


I need to keep on top of my workouts and make sure that I don't slip with my eating and drinking.  It's too important.

Halloween Target Day

Well, it's the first target after the ultimate target. 


Things have slowed down to a canter and I have achieved what I wanted to achieve today.


Slowly but surely, it's all going in the right direction. Did I mention slowly?


Anyhoo....


This morning LRD stepped on her scales and the numbers said:

13 Stone 6.5 pounds

So that's nice, I'm more or less back at what I was just before I went off to Italy on holiday and ate all of their produce.

I really would have liked to have had more off, but I went to a party on saturday night and drank wine. Naughty, naughty wine. Also ate cake. Naughty, naughty cake.

So I'm not distraught about the slow burn really, I know what I did and didn't do, so yeah. All's well.

I've set myself the next target as you'll see on my twitter page: http://twitter.com/lastresortdiet 

Next target is for a wedding that I'm going to on the 10th of December, so, I'm really gonna work hard and try to get 6.5lbs off by that Monday the 5th December, which will get me to the 13 stone boundary (dammit I want to get to that number so much!!).

An extra treat for you today!

Pumpkin and Vegetable Risotto - Serves 2 gluttons like me and Dearly Beloved - Serves about 3 - 4 normal humans:

Half an Edible Pumpkin - Peeled and chopped into pieces approx 2 inches

3 Cloves of Garlic - Peeled and Crushed with the back of a knife

150g Risotto Rice

Approx 1 Litre Stock - I used Chicken stock

1 Courgette - Roughly Chopped

1 Red Onion - Chopped in Rings

1 Red Pepper - Roughly Chopped

1 Can (410g) Haricot Beans 

Large Sprig of Sage chopped

Salt and pepper

Glug of Olive Oil

Knob of butter

Glass of white wine

Preheat the oven to approx 180 degrees Centigrade

Place the Pumpkin and the Garlic in a roasting dish and cover with some olive oil, half of the sage and some salt and pepper to season. Put into the oven for 10 minutes.


After 10 minutes add the Courgette and Red Pepper to the dish and cook for a further 10 minutes.


At this stage make up your chicken stock and place in a pot on a low heat to keep it warm.  


In another pot, melt the butter over a medium heat and add the rice to it once the butter has melted. Stir till the rice is coated and warmed through. Add the glass of white wine, stir till the white wine is encorporated.


Add the Red onion to the veggies.


Add the stock a ladle at a time stirring over a medium heat till half the stock is used.  Add the beans and stir more.


Continue with the rest of the stock a ladle at a time till the rice is no longer absorbing and has gone nice and soft.


Take the vegetables out of the oven when ready (this may be before the risotto rice is ready, so keep an eye on it!) 


Add the rest of the sage to the veggies, then add the veggies to the rice.


Stir


Add parmesan and seasoning to taste. 


Enjoy!


I made this tonight. It was darn good :)

Weekly round up and weighin

Good morning my fellow party people!  It's review time.


This week I have exercised 4 days out of 7. Only one swimming session sadly, but a productive one anyway :)


I seem to have gotten back into the way of the exercise bike again.  I had gotten big into the DVD's for a while, poor old bikey had become a rather expensive clothes horse. This week though, I did a couple of go's on her while watching a couple of episodes of "Charmed".  Have you ever seen it? It's great! Means I can sit on the bike and pedal away at different resistance levels for at least an hour and burn a good 600 calories. It's smashing!!


Calorie deficits this week were:


Monday       - 813
Tuesday      - 54
Wednesday - 24
Thursday     - 960
Friday         - 281
Saturday     - 16
Sunday       - 56
Total          - 2217


Which added to the built in 3500 calorie deficit gives me a total deficit of : 5717 calories.


Not too bad really :)


I'm quite enjoying having all these new numbers to play with really. As you can possibly tell :)


Weighin this week gave me:

13 Stone 6.25 pounds

That's a loss of 1.5 lbs :) That will probably be the last of the big losses for a wee while I would say.  I'm off on a weeks holiday this weekend. I leave on Saturday so won't have a weighin for a fortnight sadly as I won't be back till the Tuesday after.  I will have to behave myself very well this week in order to not undo all this good work.

Here's to the week ahead!

weighin 26/09/2011

Good morning world! I gots me my 8 stone lost award this morning :D


Totally thrilled about it. Just hope it isn't a fluke or something that's going to kick me in the teeth next monday. 


(Stop it LRD, enjoy the success, don't try to cut your legs out from under yourself already)


Ok, ok, I'm sorry. So yeah! 8 stone gone forever!  

13 Stone 7.75 Pounds

2.25lbs this week, which is pretty darn funky.


Calorie deficits from tracking this week are:


Monday - 553
Tuesday - 26
Wednesday - 131
Thursday - 573
Friday - 334
Saturday - 45
Sunday - 173


Grand Total of - 1835


That's deficits below my goal of 1570 per day which is already a deficit of approx 500 per day, so if I tot that up over 7 days that's 3500 calories 


3500+1835 = 5335 weekly calorie deficit.


To be fair that doesn't add up to 2.25lbs as 1lb is 3500 calories. So I'm maybe burning more than I think I am or my body is still in overdrive from a few weeks holiday. Nonetheless I'm pretty sure it'll slow back down to a pound a week pretty soon. Fun to do the sums though right? :D


(Ain't myfitnesspal great? :D)


To the week ahead then. I have a couple of pretty good weeks coming up, I will be able to do some good exercise today, Thursday and Friday as well as Monday - Thursday all next week. So that's cool. Hope to get plenty of swimming practice in over those few days too.


I really hope the enthusiasm doesn't go off me. I just need to keep imagining myself swimming off the shores of Queensland! 


Next swimming lesson is tonight and sadly I haven't been able to get to the pool between then and now, so I will not have improved one iota. I don't like not getting some practice in-between lessons, but this was the only time that she could fit me in this week, so I'll have to make do with it.  Will make sure that there's plenty of practising between tonight and the next lesson. *shakes finger at self sternly*


Anyhoo, enough rambling.  Time to go and do a DVD. Or the exercise bike....I do have the last ever episode of the Gilmore Girls to watch.......

Sticking with it and weighin

I am sitting in my living room with a cup of coffee feeling a little bit smug, and a little bit knackered.  Partly to do with the early morning shifts I've been doing in work the past few days but mostly to do with how early I got up this morning to go to the swimming pool.

YES! Look impressed!

I got up at 7am this morning and headed straight out to the swimming pool (got up too late to eat anything I'm afraid, but it'll not kill me) and did about 30 minutes practising the moves that the swimming teacher gave me last week. I bought myself a set of goggles and a new swimsuit - one that isn't falling off me - during the week and have been really looking forward to this morning.  I was so pleased with myself for managing what I did!

The goggles made so much of a difference! I was able to see where I was going, I was able to control where I was going so that I wasn't going into the wrong lane. It was great!  

I have to say, although I'm proud of what I managed to do this morning, it has really reminded me how unfit I am. In between doing my little half lengths of the pool (still a bit frightened to go into the deep end), I was resting for a few minutes in between turns cause my body was kinda screaming at me for making it work so hard. Heart rate up very quickly! Felt incredible though. Need to learn the breathing now :D

I really want to stick with this, I can just feel it increasing my core strength and my arm strength and my control of my whole body. That's something that I am missing quite desperately really.

I'm looking at the process like learning to drive again, but driving my whole body this time.  Hoping that it will increase my coordination, balance and tone up a load of wobbly bits.  Might even help me with my desire to learn to ride a bicycle :D:D:D:D:D

Got back from my swim and a lovely sauna (sooo toasty warm) and did my weighin - 13 stone 10 and a half pounds!  (192.5lbs)  a good 2.25lbs off this week.  Very pleased.

My calorie deficits this week have been: Monday 606, Tuesday 1,076, Wednesday 980, Thursday 600. Despite eating approx 1500 everyday!

Exercise has been helping me a lot. I've had a good week with plenty of days that I've been able to do a DVD and my first ever swimming lesson and sticking to it :D it's great.

Feeling great. 

This week won't be as good I'm sure, got some crappy shifts this week, but I can feel myself starting down a really good road with this :).

I'm excited to be learning new things :)

Onederland

Been a few days in coming this post!

This Monday I finally made it to ONEDERLAND!!!

I stepped onto the scales and was delighted to see that they read 14 stone 2 and a quarter pounds.  198.5lbs!  

*SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEAM*

I can't believe I've finally made it.

Ok, I haven't *madeit* made it, I still have about 48.5lbs to lose before I hit my ultimate goal, but still.  The joys of knowing multiple units of measurement is that I get to celebrate every single little thing that I achieve :D

I have got 22 days now till my event that I started all this nonsense for in the first place and I hope to goodness the dress that I have bought fits me properly.

I have been obsessing about my little belly flap thing now for weeks.  It is the most annoying thing and I don't think it's going to get a lot better! It's that little pouch that sits just under your belly button and when you've had to lose 100 pounds or more, just hangs down by your lady place.

It's puffy and ruins the lines of your clothes.

So I have spent this entire week researching "Shapewear"  or as Sarah Millican would call it "Sucky-in Knickers"

I eventually plumped (pun!) for the BodyWrap Natural high waist shapewear pants. Cause a load of reviews (well 2) said that they were the best for the "Lower Abdominal region"  and most of the other ones that I saw were mostly to do with the tum tums.  Don't get me wrong, I need help there too, and the waist line also needs a bit of solidifying, but the lower abdominal is the region causing me the most distress. So I think those have arrived today so I will be trying those on later tonight with the dress in question and seeing what I think.

I hope it fits.  I really love this dress.

Anyway.  Onederland!  

Need to set a new target soon......Lets get to 7.5 stone off first I guess!

Fluctuations f***tuations

Ok, so I know I'm not perfect. 


On times when I feel like it I have desserts and I overindulge in my portion size. When I'm on shifts I eat way more calories than I allow for in a day because dammit I'm awake for longer and I want to have a sandwich!!!


This week, my weight has been going bananas. Absolutely freaking bananas.


I know, I know what you're thinking, "LRD, you're a naughty girl, you're not supposed to be weighing yourself every day!! This is exactly the kind of behaviour that you read about in other peoples blogs and you know messes with peoples heads!"


ME: "Oh yeah, well, you smell!"


Yeah I know, bad behaviour, but it's something I've always done.  I weigh myself 2 times a day to make sure that everything is on track. Once before bed and once first thing in the morning (it's kinda fun to see how much you lose overnight just sleeping).  


On monday I did my official weighin and hit 200.5lbs - so near and yet so far to the next little target - and was quite pleased with that given the amount of partying and so on that has been happening over the past few weeks.


Tuesday I stepped on the scale - 204lbs.
Wednesday - 206lbs!!!!!  What the actual f**k!!!???


This morning I stepped on to the scale and she's sitting at 201.5lbs.  It's insane! I can only assume that it's because I have been partying over the past few weeks and it takes a little bit of a while for the gain that I earned to settle in and make itself known.  (gah) Also I went out for dinner with dearly beloved on Saturday night which although very nice, wasn't worth a 4lb gain!


So anyway, just felt the urge to have a minor rant about how crap my body is behaving. I have only got a month left before the wedding that I started all this nonsense for in the first place. 


I tried on the dress that I bought for it last night. I really hope I'm retaining a water butt. It just doesn't look right. I will be very disappointed.


Well anyway.  I have - to combat the fluctation monster - picked up my water intake again as that had gone to the wayside a little and trying to get back into logging my food properly. I had started guesstimating a little too much for my taste. 


Funny really, it seems that that 100lb loss mark is a bit of a brick wall for a lot of people.  Really need to get to that point and re-evaluate and start afresh like you've not lost anything at all yet I think.


I am now a 200lb person that needs to lose 50lbs, not a 300lb person that needs to lose 150lbs. It's a whole new identity and a whole new approach.


Ok this has turned into a ramble. Time for another cup of coffee.

2 Goals in a day

Well, I've had a very big couple of days.


Last weeks weighin was a little disappointing as I had a gain after a weekend away.  But I put it to one side stating water weight as the only reasonable solution (not drinking a lot of water to avoid using festival toilets and the associated queues).  


Yesterday I stepped onto the scale and was absolutely blown away with the reading.


14 Stone 5 and a quarter pounds.


A loss of 6 and a quarter pounds.


which means I'm now (*quick calculation*) 201.5lbs.


which means that I've lost 101lbs in total.


It ALSO means that my BMI is now 29.7!!!!!!!!!


I am no longer Obese.


Now I'll admit, I don't feel a whole lot different this week than I did last week. I don't think my clothes are fitting any better than they already were. My confidence is already pretty high, but to have that label taken off my ass. It's pretty damn liberating.


The one thing that's slightly annoying me however is not having anyone to share my utter joy at this with.  My mum has failed in her attempt to lose any weight, I've gotten to a point with my family that I've really stopped trying to get them to do anything. Despite the fact that my Mum is hobbling about at the moment with severe hip pain and convinced that the next family event that we have she will be stuck in a wheelchair for it.


She's already walking with a stick at the moment and she's only 55 years old.


I know how hard it is to lose weight, believe me, I KNOW! But I know for a fact that she hasn't even tried. I had to give up nights out for a long time to make sure that I was sticking to my calorie goal, I stopped drinking alcohol during the week (actually at all for a fair while till I was getting to where I wanted to be) and I know that a lot of their calories for the week comes from the couple of drinks they have at night time.


It makes me cross that she hasn't tried. 


Part of the reason that I want to lose weight is that I want to have a baby. I'm 30 years old now and I am ready to be a mom, but I want to have a healthy body to give any baby that I might have the very best start in life.  I want my mum to be around to meet that baby. I'm afraid that she's not going to be if she keeps going the way she's going.


I told her yesterday that I've lost 101lbs and that I wasn't obese anymore, she didn't say anything. No congratulations. Nothing.


I was so cross, I didn't want to talk to her.


Kinda took the shine off my day really.


I'm really looking forward to this weekend though. I get to wear my gorgeous dress I bought while I was on holiday in America! (Friends wedding)


I'm gonna look friggin amazing ;)

Weekend of excess after the anniversary.

Had every intention of behaving myself this weekend you know.  Thought to myself, your target day is on Monday LRD, you don't want to be eating too much and screwing it up after hitting such a milestone on Tuesday.


Then it was sunny.


There was ice cream.


There were chips.


There was cider.


There was one of the most amazing concerts that I have ever seen in my entire life!!


Flaming lips live at Jodrell Bank! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLw75uHOico

Then there was the chip shop just round the corner from the hotel at 1am when we should have been going to sleep.


All adds up to a wonderful 3lb gain from last tuesday - technically a 1lb gain from the last official weighin but Tuesday was my anniversary/fativersary/whatever the cool kids are calling it these days and I did a wee extra sneaky weighin to see how I had done!


It was official, I had lost 7 stone over the course of one year!
So damn it I was going to celebrate it at the concert this weekend! :D


I'm hoping to be honest with you that the majority of it is water retention as I spent a lot of time not drinking any water so that I wouldn't have to go and queue up in the massive queue of people for the slightly grotty portaloos that they had there. Sufficient toilets my backside!!


Anyway, I digress.


I made my target for the month of losing half a stone. To be honest after getting back from america I lost  the majority of that in the first week so really I only lost about 3 lbs this month officially. Not terrible though, just need to make goals more attainable in the future.


I've set myself my next goal of 7.5lbs by the end of August. That will take me down to 7.5stone lost and at 200lbs exactly. No longer obese and teetering on the brink of onederland.


Glorious onederland, how I have dreamt of seeing you!!


Anyways.


Everything seems to be on track at the moment, workouts will be sporadic at best this month sadly as I'm working pretty much flat out to cover for people being on holiday (and being on holiday a few days myself), so we'll see how it all goes.

Doing well, but not wanting to do more. Weighin time!

It's weigh in day and my entire being is rebelling against any sort of physical activity.


I weighed in at a very reasonable 14 stone 12 and a half pounds (under the 15 stone mark! Woohoo!!!!)  Which means I only have 5.75lbs (roughly) to go till I'm not obese anymore!


It's hilarious really, you work your bum off (literally) for a year just to become overweight. Reminds me of a comedy stand up routine I saw a guy do once where he said his body fat content was higher than that of a pig. So when someone called him a fat pig he could take it as a compliment "Thank you I've been working out!"


So yeah, very pleased with that.  Back to the not wanting to do more section of this post now.  


Today is my only day off this week. I am a bit tired. I know I'll feel better if I do actually do something today, but all I want to do is sit and listen to the radio and drink tea. 


I need to get my motivation back and get some work done, cause I have so many events to go to in the next few months and so many pretty dresses that don't *quite* fit right to get into. How do you get yourself motivated? How do you kick your brain into gear and get up when all you want to do is lie around and knit yourself a jumper!?


Still, nearly not obese! That's good!

Shopping with the norms.

Yesterday I had a bizarre and wonderful experience.  


I decided to go shopping yesterday to try on some clothes, see how I'm doing, and maybe get some things for the summer time as all of my light T-shirts are all a size 22-24 and hang on me like a tablecloth.


So, in I went to Evans wearing my size 18 jeans and my size 20 black vest and had a look around.  First thing I noticed was the amount of large prints and long tunics that appear to be in fashion this year.  I hate large prints.  Long tunics are ok, but they do kinda drown me given how tall I am, it makes me look like I'm wrapped in a blanket.  Anyway, I digress.  Feeling brave I picked up a pair of size 16 lycra assisted (thank god for lycra!) bootcut jeans.  I also picked up 2 size 16 t-shirts and headed for the changing rooms. 


"Lets have a look and see how far I have to go to get into these bad boys" I was thinking.


Guess what.....  They only bloody fit!!  


Size 16 jeans! And size 16 t-shirts!  I was absolutely elated! I've never jumped up and down in a changing room for joy before, normally when i jump up and down in a changing room it's to try and pull a pair of jeans up over my bum!!!!!


I'm still high about it as you can possibly tell.


Then the tops, THEY FIT TOO!!! Can you believe it!? I'm officially a size 16 on top!  I am not yet counting the size 16 bottoms as evans jeans tend to be quite forgiving, plus they're a nice cut and have a bit of stretch to them, so anything linen or with no give in them will be far too small, but still.  I'm happy :)


So.  As I walking into the town I noticed H&M. A shop that I have honestly never ever been in as it only does sizes up to 16/18


I WENT IN!


I TRIED STUFF ON!


I DECIDED WHAT TO BUY BASED ON WHAT I LIKED AND NOT JUST WHAT THEY HAD IN MY SIZE!!!!!


These are feelings that people who have never had a weight problem will just never feel.


I was walking past Gap and I got a lump in my throat as I realised "Oh my god, I can go in there and actually look now!"


I'm absolutely delighted, as you can possibly tell :)


Roll on the summer holidays :D

Small Hiatus and the current #weighin

Hello World, I've returned!


It's been a strange couple of weeks for me.  I had been trucking along very nicely, very pleased with all of the results that I've been getting to the point of worrying about becoming complacent and stopping too soon before achieving the lofty goals that I've set for myself (i want to lose a total of 10 stone 10 pounds (153 pounds) all in all).


Then i got last months period - or rather then I got the PMT associated with last months period.  Dear lord, I have never experienced a depression quite like it in my life.  Now don't get me wrong, I (thankfully) do not suffer from depression (clinical or otherwise) and would never play down the effect that that has on a person, but this hit of PMT made me feel worse about myself than I ever remember feeling even at my 303 pound worst!


I stopped counting calories, I stopped exercising, I made a cake for my friend who was visiting and I ate some rubbish for about 3 weeks.  Thankfully when I stepped on the scale each week (cause my crazyass brain wouldn't allow me to stop checking that every week) I hadn't done too much damage and just stalled at the 224 pound mark for a month.  


This week, finally I came out from under the dark cloud of a month long PMT to my loving bf who coped admirably with the miserable cow who kidnapped his girlfriend this month and I feel a lot better now!


I weighed in yesterday to show that at last I've broken through the 16 stone barrier (despite a barbecue at my parents house on saturday night  - yes it is march, I just love barbecues :D) and am at 15 stone 12 and a half. Not long to go to the next half stone award!  Think I'll buy myself a new wardrobe for my holiday when I hit that :)


Glad to be out from under the cloud!


xxx