Hello World, I've returned!
It's been a strange couple of weeks for me. I had been trucking along very nicely, very pleased with all of the results that I've been getting to the point of worrying about becoming complacent and stopping too soon before achieving the lofty goals that I've set for myself (i want to lose a total of 10 stone 10 pounds (153 pounds) all in all).
Then i got last months period - or rather then I got the PMT associated with last months period. Dear lord, I have never experienced a depression quite like it in my life. Now don't get me wrong, I (thankfully) do not suffer from depression (clinical or otherwise) and would never play down the effect that that has on a person, but this hit of PMT made me feel worse about myself than I ever remember feeling even at my 303 pound worst!
I stopped counting calories, I stopped exercising, I made a cake for my friend who was visiting and I ate some rubbish for about 3 weeks. Thankfully when I stepped on the scale each week (cause my crazyass brain wouldn't allow me to stop checking that every week) I hadn't done too much damage and just stalled at the 224 pound mark for a month.
This week, finally I came out from under the dark cloud of a month long PMT to my loving bf who coped admirably with the miserable cow who kidnapped his girlfriend this month and I feel a lot better now!
I weighed in yesterday to show that at last I've broken through the 16 stone barrier (despite a barbecue at my parents house on saturday night - yes it is march, I just love barbecues :D) and am at 15 stone 12 and a half. Not long to go to the next half stone award! Think I'll buy myself a new wardrobe for my holiday when I hit that :)
Glad to be out from under the cloud!
xxx
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