The day of reckoning has been and gone. I got into my pretty dress and the event passed me by without a hitch.
Bit of an anticlimax if I'm totally honest with you. A lot of work and effort went into it and it just kind of happened. Hopefully I didn't ruin the photos though :)
I got some nice compliments from some members of my extended family - one comment from one made me laugh:
"Can't call you fat anymore can we?"
No, no you can't and I'd really rather you hadn't beforehand thanks Grandmama! God help my nieces and nephews coming up behind me!
Anyway. I felt good in my dress, I enjoyed the whole weekend with my family and I ate so much crap you would not believe.
I spent all of Friday night cooking and eating and drinking.
I spent Saturday eating and drinking and feeling self conscious.
I spent Sunday eating far too much and drinking wine
and then I went to visit a friend for four days and I didn't track anything I ate - which may have included a few pints of ale and some massive ice cream, cake and pizza portions.
I had a brilliant time those few days, I really did. I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted.
The one bit I felt genuinely bad about was when I ordered a small pizza and a medium one turned up by mistake. I thought to myself, "This will be fine, I'll eat what I would have eaten anyway and put the rest in the fridge for my lunch tomorrow." Sadly my food addiction kicked in and I ate the whole thing.
I didn't feel too full or anything, I just knew that I had eaten more than I really needed to.
Would have been fine with a small one. Never mind, I know the behaviours, I will catch it in future.
So, when I got back home last Thursday I was feeling a little bit heavy on it. With the aftermath of the event last Saturday and the few days of no fruit and vegetables at all. (I swear, I don't know how my friend functions properly at all, the fridge has nothing but cheese in it!) So I didn't bother with a weighin last week. I think I might have actually cut a limb off in an attempt to make the number go down.
I spent the rest of the week then on a fairly rigid 1200 calorie per day emergency recovery total to see if I could at the very least undo a little bit of damage.
Stepped on the scales this morning and there the little numbers told me
13 Stone 12.75 Pounds
At last!! I've managed to get under the 14 stone mark. That and the fact that it's the week of my period too is quite satisfying. Just hoping that the old 2 week rule isn't going to kick me in the teeth - as it seems to be that a week of indulgence catches up on you a fortnight later. I really want it to stay under 14. So, with that in mind, I'm gonna try to stick to 1200 this week as well. I've set my target on www.myfitnesspal.com to 1580 (a 1lb loss per week) and I will eat that many I think, but I'm going to try to exercise enough to have it at 1200 each day. Try to firefight a little bit.
Long post eh? Well tough luck, my brain is going 50 to the dozen so you'll just have to deal with it :)
So. New targets.
My ultimate goal to lose all of my weight was last Saturday. Kinda failed at that really. Seems that everyone has unrealistic expectations of how quickly hard work gives you results on this particular task. So I don't feel too bad about it. Thankfully. Otherwise I would have thrown the head up by now and eaten a whole bucket of KFC - which I still haven't eaten since 28th June 2010.
No, I realise now that this is a marathon, not a sprint. That this is setting me up for the intuitive eating that I need to get to grips with for the rest of my life. That said, I'm a competitive fecker and I like to challenge myself with little targets.
So, lets see what the numbers say as of today 12/09/2011:
I currently weigh - 194.75lbs
ultimate target - 150lbs
That's 44.75lbs to go.
I need to make sure that I take it nice and slow now without slowing to a crawl and losing heart.
My next Ultimate target I think is going to be next November. Dearly beloved and myself are going to go to Australia again. I will write about my wishes for that trip later.
So, next Mini Target is 31/10/2011 - to be at 190lbs (13 Stone 8 Pounds) - that will get me to the 8 stone lost mark.
Hopefully Do-able.
Next BIG target I suppose has to be Christmas. I would really love to wear my lovely red Dress to a christmas party this year and not feel self conscious about my stomach. It's a size 16 but I would love to be a comfortable size 14 by then. it's about 97 days till Pre-Christmas weighin, so we'll see how that goes.
It's an odd feeling to watch a target date whizz past you. I think it's important to make sure that while you're doing this that you set yourself little tiny targets to hit along the way. Keeps it interesting :)
Oh AND I have my first swimming lesson tomorrow at 3.30pm!!!!!!! I am *so* excited about it. I am not allowing myself to get nervous about it, I want to be able to swim so much!
Will talk about that afterwards tomorrow :D
Anyway, enough of this typing nonsense, it's 12:35pm and I still haven't done my exercise DVD today! UNACCEPTABLE!!
Happy Mondays folks xx
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